Sunday, December 26, 2010

26/12/2010

Today she went to japan.
I will be waiting for her 1 week..
I promised i will guai guai ^^
Sleep at 12am latest,
Smoke less
Dun kao lui
No flirting
Eat more
Be positive
Ofcuz missing her ^^
To Her : Baby I will miss u miss u miss u, have fun!! n dear wait u^^ Muahhhsss!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

19/12/2010

This morning, i woke up late to work..
But my morning is just great..
Thinking bout her last night.
The _ _ _ _ _ _ <3 that she posted for me
Plus, i saw her message this morning makes me feel like " damn i have such a great fresh morning "
I work and smsed with her in the aftrnoon, Sadly i didnt get a chance to see her..
Oh well, fate doesn't go this way =[
I still feel happoie that she smsed me.
Was painting while learning how to talk more bout others..
I realised something, something deep inside..
If you wanted people to understand you, You need to understand about people too.
1 people working hard to change doesn't make any changes.
You need both to work things out. This is what wife and husband for in this world.
Love doesnt mean the boy have to protect the girl and be the hero all the time.
Girl's have things to do to, moral support, care, loves, teamwork, assists.
In Chinese we say, 1 hand clap, no sound will be produced.
I tended to test her tonight. Im Sorry to you~
But to know what she has in her mind? To know each other more or not,
Whether she know what is love? Know what she wants?
I know, She's smart, She good in education, she has what she wants
She tend to think that things are perfect with what she's done.
But If someone's perfect, the world wont be stable anymore.
People Gets sensitive, because people care.
Nobody get sensitive if they don't give a damn to a thing.
Example, When u care about ur laptop, a single small scratch, You'll feel pain and hurt. But if u dun care about it, If it fall down from 10th floor to Ground Floor. You Dont give a damn about that shit.
I wonder why does she cant understand about this?
Does it worth?
For me to give all my love to her and let her say disappointing compliment everyday??
Everyday, and i just say sorry all the time.
Why can't she wait for my reply?
Im working, i know im poor. Not rich and has to work.
But why do i have to work hard and look for extra commisions?
Don't she ever think about its for her?
Buying stuff, Going out, Planning future..
Im someone who look further in the future, Not today and ends tomorrow.
I felt very sad, very disappointed too.
I Hope she can understand about it.

Kenny 19/12/2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

Back in the Past

I know you since i was 9 years old, you were fat, stupid, idiot. I hated you so much. Everytime i see you i complain. But everytime i went to find your brother, i always have to suffer looking at you in the living room watching Cartoon Network/Disney Channel with ur legs high in the sofa. You Suck.
You always being a disturbance to me. If im going to rate you, I'll give u 1/2 over 10.
I wud hate u even more if sharlene is there with you. You guys would make stupid stuff.
The only way to solve the problem is asking Chuan to expel you guys out of the room. Jumping around like monkeys. Oh My Gosh is the only word i use to describe you.

You begin to get better at the age of 12. But i still hate u. I remembered when the computer is in your room, You and Huey Huey took Chuan's underwear and play with it. The MOST disgusting shit ever. I know its Sharlene not you, But still vice versa same gang. You stand and laugh like shit too. Chuan's really really mad that time. Haha!

At the age of 13 and 14, you changed alot. Thats where i begin to take u as a sister. You started to know what is a Human Being supposed to be. Maybe games changed you, I dont know. Because you started to mixed around that time. At the age of 13, Before we became brother and sister, i once chased you and dumb you. Telling you. to remember, I Won't fall in love with a girl like you.

You started to changed lot and lot, When you couple with JP and Jf, thats the moment im scared of you changing into bad girls. With your punks and emo picture. I felt so worry about you.I dislike JP that moment because i dont think he's a nice guy for u, he's mixing WP too. In This moment, you changed into someone very shy. You get blushed easily.. haha~

After you guys broke up, Once again i chase you when i broke up with PL. This time, Im serious. But when PL came back to me, I chose her. Im sorry i broke your heart
You transfered to Sapura Smart School after you finnished your PMR, i didn't expect you to get such result. Because you're dumb but then you did =] Proud of you. You became very smart in several aspects. You even stop arguing with your family anymore and co-operated with them. Our brother and sister love getting deeper and deeper because we have lots of topic to talk about.

Until one night, we chat and dared each other, i was planning to cheat u. Asking for Chuan's help. But Chuan told me, " If you wanna win, Win a good way, No Cheating! ". I answer, " Im scared i would fall in love if i really chase her with all my effort", but i told myself before i promised this game to start. " I won't fall in love no worries, She's just a sister to me and im have to win her roses to laugh at her " When i started to chase u im still myself. I keep thinking about how to get you all day and night. But one day, when im in Midvalley with my housemate, i saw a pretty cloth for girl. I realised the first one appears in my mind is you. Im asking myself does this cloth suits sinyin?? I begin to imagine about our promise to skating on 12th December 2010 and keep thinking how to tell my boss that i want to off that day. But i failed. Until today i keep imagine about it. I regret of telling you, " Remember i won't fall in love with a girl like You".............
I Guess I fell in love.


Kenny.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Why Can't Anyone Understands Me?

I don't understand why it's hurting me deeper,
I must do something bout it, But i don't mean to,
What I'm trying to say is that I Love You.
I just feel like this is coming to an end,
And it's better for me to let it go now than holding on,
And Keep Hurting Myself.
Was thinking bout u, thinking bout me.. how am i gonna confess it to you?
There is so many things blocking my way to you,even you step further away when i step closer to you.
I swear i feel very sad, Feeling that u ignored me,Didn't know how to give u all my love,Im disappointed in myself.
Damn i Nearly Cried, When i sit down and think about it alone.
Your 1 message, 1 reply wud make me happy, your 1 night chat cud make me happy whole day and night.
When i think bout u i smiled, i cant even stop smiling.
But i know, im just a taxi for u to ride and leave.
I don't think you're gonna change, its better to go on separate way.
Why should i continue love you this way since im hurting, and sad?
Baby I Love You, I don't care about anything, I want you.
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry.

These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I don't know what to do,
When im going to tell you, Im going to tell you all about it.
I supposed to Stand up Like a Man, But i fell like a Women.

Hope u Saw this,
Ps : I need You

Sunday, November 28, 2010

My Sweetest Memory In Life~

17th November 2010
I was so bored at home, Sleeping, online, eat, hear mp3
Thinking about any better activity to do,
Think...Think...Think....
Nothing came out its late, somewhere around 7pm
i went to Mamak downstair eat something..
after that i came back to the room,
started to think...think..and think again.
Yen suddenly Facebook me, a sister of my ex, who i used to care, love.
Seems like she had forgotten bout it..
She came all the way from langkawi to KL for vacation.
She asked me to go for ice skating in Sunway Pyramid on the next day,
and i accepted the offer.
I felt like, Does she really doesnt even remember a shit bout us?
i felt sad, She just invited me like " kenny, let go to ice skating tomorrow in sunway pyramid, are u free? if free come ok "
Oh well, just forget bout it and stop thinking.
After that i just continue do the lamest act in the world, online jerking around.
In the night, i told hazel that im taking my phone from her, then i went to her place and we ate supper together. Chit chat Chit Chat till midnight around 1Am ++

18th November 2010
After supper i went home, threw my phone aside without turning it ON, decided to turn it on the next day.
But then....
I went to my laptop, i saw message from YEN again,
She say that she has urgenting thing,
Written " EMERGENCY EMERGENCY "
i was like " OMG What Happened!! "
She said, "Nah, Just wanna go overnight at your place, and i say okay.. "
But she don't dare to take taxi alone, so i went over to pick her up.
I talked to mummy and win that night, they treat me kinda nice, [ touched for mummy ]
And Yen doesnt stop talking on the phone, didnt know who called her so many times LoL!
That night, i let her sleep in my room and i slept outside LOL kesian right?
No choice Yen punya pasal. haha..
Study the whole night till 7am in the morning and she was sleeping..
I decided to walk out to find some food for her, So i went out walking,
Finding the whole Pandan Indah, But can't look for any shit kuih or malay nasi lemak in the morning because its Raya Haji that day.
Oh well, i just tapao Nasi Lemak from Mamak store for her, No choice.
I also drew a stupid so-called picture for her, With notes behind.
[Uploading it Tomorrow ]
She woke up when i reached home, came out and eat her nasi lemak.
i take spoon and fork for her, ready everything for her, like im taking care of a kid LOL! [ Much more better than i take care of my GF ] xD
after that, im so freaking tired so i went to sleep.
i asked her to wake me up 1 hour later but she didnt, she let me sleep till 11+ if im not mistaken.
While sleeping, i felt something keep kacau my shoulder,
it annoys me from sleep, so i moved my body,
it continuously annoys me till i wake up and suddenly see her Yen standing there
I was in a so Freaking Shocked With the stupid act!
Yen was laughing like crazy after that and she called me KENNY GAGA. Bad Yen!
i woke up and laugh at myself tho =.- stupid kenny.
After that we get ready and went to Berjaya Times Square and Sungei Wang.
Well, That time, i saw a Freak Shopping like crazy,
Maybe langkawi people never saw huge shopping centre so she shops like stupid freak hahaha! Sorry yen!
Nonstop walking, and im nonstop following her, Like a PA [ Personal Assistant ]
i was so exhausted that moment and that is also my first time accompany a girl shops that crazily. i dun shop with girl because im lazy.
Oh well.. i dont know what mood she's in but she made me felt dying haha!
She bought lots of shirt there, they are cheap, RM15-RM30 1 shirt.
Oh ya! we went to T-bowl restaurant too!
Funny thing here~
We sat down and order first,
then we realised Different types people sit beside us accordingly,
From Student - Couple - Employee - Married Adult - Aged Unties.
The Group of old untie is bullying the cashier,
Asking bout his age, how long working and stuff,like wanna tackle that guy LOL!
We found a FeedBack Paper on the table for customer to comment

Name : Kenny
Phone Number : 0175221047
0166452074
0124272391 [ this 1 at the top ]
FeedBack : Something Like, no need upgrade ad .. becuz its too suck
Lots More nice stuff Forgot d LOL!
After that we Continue shopping,
Shop Shop shop till about 7pm.
Oh the way going back home, at Timesquare's Monorail station
We saw an Advertistment writen " Selamat Datang ke Taiwan " [ Welcome To Taiwan ]
Was like SWT! Wth is that, This is Malaysia.



Also took a few pictures Stupidly telling us that we went to Taiwan together
[ Hallucinate ] CoooL~~ =.=







Its Raining at the moment, I ran over surrounding place and can't even find a taxi to get home, so we waited for 15 minutes, Still no taxi. The Best Part is,
I Suggested Yen to run in the rain back home with me, and i tell her its just about 3-5 minute walk away [ its 10-15minute ] hahaha!
And we Started!! xD


[ Mei, You Cover ur head for what? Sure will Wet De!! Ben Dan ]


[ Fat Kitty GaGa! ]



We Splashed Each other badly, The Only Water-Proof Place Is our Ass! HAHAHA!
Then we reached home, My housemate, Patricia saw us wet and she was like, OMG! KIDS!
Hahaha!
After Shopping, People usually counting about how much money they spent and how to survive next or things like this. BUT this is different.
She's counting her STOCK! LOL! COOLEST HUMAN IN THE WORLD@@


[ This is The stocks ]


[ A " Ang Kong " sitting infront all of the stuffs ]

I made her smile while walking in the rain.. Im so freaking happy, i dont know why..

Oh Well, Its time to go back~
I bring her to bukit jalil bus terminal
and she looked so exhausted but when i ask her " are u tired ? " she always say no.
we went to Mcdonald somewhere near that area.
When we go back to the bus terminal, we called a cab,
When reached bus terminal we still got 1 hour left there.
Sitting there waiting, Both of us fell asleep.
Suddenly im awake and asked for her handphone.
She cant find it, And she tells me that she left it in the CAB and i was Like Oh My GOD!
i called, and someone answer and asked me to go and take it back [ There is still nice people in this world ] UNBELIEVABLE!
So i went over to pick it up.
When i came back, Yen's Bus is already here, and i sent her go on bus.
Erm, Ending is like sWeet~
But No Kiss dun worry =P
She say bye bye and we hug each other,
Talk few more words.....
And she went up to the bus..
I stay awake the whole night just to ensure that she doesn't wake up in the bus and
Think alot..
And i ended up falling asleep at 5++
Oh well, Superman Have to Rest too =P

Finally, the Dream Ends. ^^
Ps : I missed you yen, I missed you so much.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

To You~

Even if you leave me, I can watch over you, Looking at you from the side.
Im Happy, Its more than enough
Even If you're in someone else's arm, If you remembered me, Thats enough.
Don’t get sick, don’t skip meals to lose weight, you have to laugh more, more in front of the others, beautifully
You should stay happy smile sweet everyday, and don't worry, nothing can hurt you.
Because im watching from behind, Protecting u like i used to be.
Whatever happens to you, just think about me, i will appear in your life and accompany you through the sad moment.
You may forget about me after you're ok but its ok. I bare with everything i can bare just for you.

If you missed me, listen to the song we used to listen and sing together.
when someone hurts you, listen to this song for me, u wud feel protected and calm down slowly =]
If you keep wanting to see me, sing this song, The only thing would remind us is the memory given to you.
If people asked about me sometimes, say you don’t know me, say that you threw me away, it’s okay i don't actually mind being the rubbish in this world.
If I can’t stand it and keep disturbing you all night, reply me and just scold me as hard as u can, and keep ignore me.
There’s nothing I did for you anyway, turn away cleanly, as u feel that u've already paid what u should for what i did for u.
Even yearning is a luxury, erase me completely, be happy I beg of you, live for yourself, find a good future, have a good life.
Forget me, be happy!
I’m sorry I can’t be by your side.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Definition Of Tired

Tired :
In need of some rest or sleep; Fed up, annoyed, irritated, sick of; Overused, clich.

Tired :
An expression representing sadness or disappointment.
Example, Tired of Loving you.

Vice versa goes to me. Im Tired Tired Tired Tired. Dunno how many tired.
I wanna rest, sleep, play my game, attend my class. Simple.
Don't wanna think so much about anything anymore.
I felt kinda relieve after i leave everything behind for a day.
Much more relaxing that i thought =D
Sleep, Eat, Study, Game.
Everyday got hazel accompany me do this n that, really wont boring.
Because she suck, every minute argue say each other =] Cool ayy~
i dun even wanna think bout love rite now.
Wanted to give myself a free space, enjoying the loneliness =]

Btw, didnt sleep whole night last night till today, straight went to the class.
My principle of management lecturer is a clown or model u can call that,
She's even lousier than a student, gosh~
She talks alone, with her new BEST ENGLISH IN THE WORLD Award's English,
While, student were watching movie infront of her.
Those sitting at my left side, 1 were sleeping the other 1 is talking to her BF [ dunno from what class, not our sem ]
Few more Massaging their friends body.
And i sit behind hearing song, reading the note alone and ask her question == COOL! Wtf. when i tired i sleep while, then wake up study again.. she doesnt even care
I can see this lecturer loves to talk to herself and take her salary and go. wtf i hate her. Hope she goes by this 31st december =]
I went to buy a new sim card after school.
Anybody wants my new number pls comment below i will reply
010-43302xx
After school, once i reach home, straight sleep sleep sleep.. till now just wake up,
gonna go get some food and continue sleeping =] Nites Buenos Noches =]