Positive

Im changing myself into something positive,
which i can go out and everybody wont look at me like a drug addictor and im healthy..
im still finding money to work my business out [ ikan bilis ] but eventually less people will help, but i'll still try hard to find..
Just now morning i cant wake up so i didnt send Han and suk min to pudu, im sorry to them.
After wake up, i take a bath and went out to giant and pay my phone bills then eat.
after that i went to puduraya sending rias and mushu there buy ticket to go back to ipoh but there is no ticket available, then we head to sungai wang for shopping,
Enjoy walking around but didnt have money to buy =C
Well.. life's fair, God's fair..
We end shopping at 10+ and we come back from there, it was a huge jam on the road, so please people dun move on the road at 10+.
i also called derek because he called me yesterday telling me they are going to have baby and im going to be uncle =)
Called him to ask about when is their Marriage/wedding and it was on 5/27
i wish i can attend their wedding and not working on that day..
By the way, sungai wang really alots of girl age between 17-29 [ Recommended to go kao lui ] haha =.= but i dont, i just walk around and look for pretty clothes.
i reach home around 11.30pm and now im writing this.. =)
Well Guys today is not really special.. but lotsa changes in life..
Im GoinG to Build myself back and live in MY life,
A life, without drugs and healthy.
tatax ;)

Im Done.

Okay, Times over no more games no more drugs. now concentrate in my life.
Fuck it, Please NO FUCKING MORE NEW IDS TO CHECK ME AND TEST ME I FUCKING MAD AT IT TO ANYONE FUCK UP WHO DO THIS TO ME. FUCK U BITCH!
Tomorrow, im going to losts my laptop for sale.
Im going to sacrifice what i have for my business and i hope this business works.
i dun care anymore my partner wanna work ir out or not but im going to Do MY FUCKING STUFF MY FUCKING SELF.
To Jia Yi : Thanks For Your Caring But Just Fucked up In the End KANToi at my hand also. So just shut up and do with no reason for nothing ok?
To pauline : Say whatever u want but im still remaining single now. and i dun wanna go into love GAMES. thank you.
EVERYTHING ABOUT GAME AND JOY ENDS HERE.
IM MOVING ON VERY RAPIDLY AFTER THIS.
YOU GUYS WILL SEE THE RESULT IN THE END.
BUT ITS NOT YOURS, ITS MINE.
I Finally Can stand without any helps and counsellings.
I DUN NEED NOBODY TO ACHIEVE MY CAREER and im GONNA BE FUCKING SELFISH trust me.
okay okay, end with the scolding topic.

Today i went out to One Utama, damn stoned and lost [Over Dosage ]
i dont know what i do in the morning and what i ate for breakfast haha.
We actually went for snooker and some shopping and i ate Chicken rice in the morning haha..
then we send Eric Mak home.. and went to Segi, thought i wanna play badminton but we didnt because court is full. went out with anderson to eat including han heng and his gf.
So we had a quite good time and thats it.
In the night Anderson called ask me go Kayu eat and i went, The great news is that he would like to invest some in my business to help me and hisself..
Had a great time, he changed my mind. Lols. changed me into someone stronger than before who i am.
That makes me feel confident to do my stuff. and that this is not my life, stay home suck bou and stone all the time. No.
I wanna go work and go gym in the night so that i have beautiful bodies and good look and i also dun wanna Look Cracked. Macam pantat =.=
Okay time to sleep, tomorrow 11am i got to go out. 5 hours left to sleep.
Good night To kenny!

DePresseD

I Feel So Bad everyday, so Frust..
i wanted to stay back with u..
im scared...
i wish there is someone would wrap around her hand around me and tell me love is beautiful..
I am living in a suffering life, The hardest moment in life that i ever had.
i wish everything can be ok. =C

SaD~

iM Sick for 4 days already today still not okay.. what happen to me..
Im so sick of bou.. sekali hisap sekali batuk. T.T nak stim pun takleh...
LOL, My so-called YOU is not true? she had other boy? LOL! apa nih.. aku kena main sekali lagi? awwwwww...
Fine.
Few days didnt online, cant do anything except lying on bed sleep and watching movie and footballs.
i wanna say thanks to Muhd Rias, Mark, Miko, Surrean and Mushu for caring about me so much, take water, buy foods, give me medicine..... i feel very happiness. my Gosh.. Thanks to them! i love u guys!

Frust.

Just Dont Give up, im Working it out
Please Dun Give in, i Wont let u down
It mess me out, need a second to breath.
There might have been a time, i would give myself away.
ooh, Once upon a time but i didnt give a damn
But Now here we are.

Bring Sun, Cloudy Sky

Today, i woke up in the morning realised that i am so stone and OD last night... and see surrean pass some bou come then i suck sajalah.. then stone again..
this afternoon i talked to her awhile, then she went to yoga training..
When She back home, i talk to her.. we really have a good and sweet night.. haha!
In the night, watch movie football, they argue about Bou, become all v down.. haih sad.. =.= Anyway, hope everything will be ok tomorrow.. Good NIghts.
Good night To You!~ xP

Emo

What happen to me? I scolded her like shit. LOL!
Today, wake up till sleep dunno what happen. oh my god,
i cant remember what i do the whole day..
I just miss yaw chuan So Muchx. ofcuz u also.
one day pass. Tomorrow another day, life is so meaningless.
i dun know what i want
what i need
what is my objective
What my life is all about.
i feel empty.
i more is, im crazy. i can feel it.

Sorry, im not that into you

Do you think i am a kid?
Who do u think i am to you?
One word for u, SIAL.
You've been couple with me before for 10 months, u never know that do not lie and test me? because u're just wasting ur time.
Who am i to u? someone who u want to come back then come back, want to go then go. have u ever fucking care about my feeling before. Bullshit.
I have my life. Sorry, im not that into u =)

Faizal Tahir - Coba [ I mean it to u idiot =.= ]

Coba kau dengar
Coba kau coba
Diam bila ku coba
Tuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu

Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku padamu

Coba kau lihat
Coba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
Dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang mendapatkan aku
Itulah aku padamu

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang mendapatkan aku
itulah aku padamu

Aku OD.

Today, i realized there is more beautiful sky in the world.
I realized there is more people who loves me, care about me, cry for me.
I feel touched that GOD have eyes and its fair even i dun have what i want.

i Have a wiSh for my everyday cycle :
Dear Sun, please make my day Smooth and steadY
Dear Moon, Please make my night sweet and Sexy.

i want a smooth day, working, Enjoy drink tea time.
I want everyday with smile when i walk out of the gate.
I want a sweet night which i can hug u to sleep.
i want a night u would lay down on my chest and spend our night chatting and enjoy moon.

Mari continue.
Last night sleep at 9 in da morning Wtf because chat with someone till 6++am and she makes me feeeeel happi till cant sleep ( of course ada hisap bong la )
today wake up so late, in the evening.
after wake up i clean house, then kena 1 bong and eat.
after that i call chuan and he pick me then we both go honeymoon to ss15 and go take porn 500GB sial~!
After come home, dunno why she dun want answer my call.. then answer....
we tok tok tok..and i got to know that she's jealous =P Am i right? u know who u are.
and its a happy ending.. i love today and tonight.
Have Chuan and u accompany me.. my life is wonderful!
Muacks For u Both! Claps Claps~
Now just finnish McD. wanna go room sleep le.. very tired..
sleep le tomorrow wait for her back home and accompany her.. make her happy!
I love you~ ( you )
Muacks!
Good Night Guys~


[ Ini muka Lost Dan OD ]

Apa Telah jadi?

Today i Speak malay.

Apa telah terjadi padaku? Saya bangun pada pukul 2.30 petang.
pas bangun, Straight stone sampai yaw chuan call aku dan straight aku lari gi mandi.
malas Sial!
Pastu, kami gi cari thomas ambil 500gb punya Porn, Yaw Chuan dah tergesa gesa ngan porn itu.. =.= perogol la dia..
Tapi, malangnya itu babi pukimak tiang tidur dan tak angkat telepon. haha~
Pastu aku ngan chuan gi makan old town ( dia belanja ) xP
Bila aku sampai kat umah, ambik 1 bomb tidur pulak. pastu kena gerak ngan kawan aku, suruh aku gi makan KFC, burn anak lelaki Pundek belanja. huhu.
pastu Stone again sampai Skang. =.= Sial punya Hidup.
Aku nak Gi jadi pemalas dah.. ba bye.

A Final Sad Dayz

After 6 days i closed myself in the house,
Today night, Im Done. Cheered up by my friends.
They Popped me! My Gosh.. im Quita happy..
Tomorrow wanna Concentrate on my work already.. i have no more time to fool and play around anymore... things changed...!
I shud cry because of her that much. she hurt me. lols.
And Shows that i love her, so i let her do what she wants.
She happy = i happy
i happy = something bad happened.
i guess all my blog friend know this haha!